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Skies

I like skies… this picture I took while of my reccurence from Paris.

Skies have something enigmatical in their appearance. Anyway, today I was also looking for sunrise. My friend came to a breakfast, he brought fresh bread and a lot of goods. He is really nice guy.

I want one day tell him about my strange paranoia. I feel myself relatively secure in this mansion. But I feel also a permanent presence of them…

My dear friends, my unsvisible reader, tell me, what do you do in the times of troubles, in the moments of the radical exasperation? Are there some ways to heal this pain of emptiness in my inner world?

Memories

In these empty days I often recall the moment, I saw the statue.

I was following my tasks in Paris, I had to lurk in Louvre. And from the window I saw this lonely cold human shaped stone.

And I felt relatedness to this human shaped shadow. I took this picture, and I took many other pictures and I failed on that day. My target was gone. It was perhaps the most disastrous day in my life.

But somewhere in my inner world I have very weird feeling. This feeling says me, that I won. And that I was human beeing on that day. And it does my soul good…

Path in the shadow

Do you know the path in shadow?
That’ll be my Elysium.
I was following this way,
Long and mazy, dark by day.
Now I’ve reached this part of me.

Do you know the place in shadow?
This is my Elysium.
Here is hidden Paradise,
Here is Eden, sliced twice.
Here I always want  to be.

Did you know the place of shadows?
It was my Elysium
But beyond the horizon
Sun was born, so bright and strong.
Now, again I have to flee.

…

Erika, oh Erika…

Strange friend

I’m living in his mansion. He doesn’t say much. I don’t say much. I even don’t know his name. I trust him and he trusts me – that is enough. We have only one agreement – I may never visit the basement of the house. It’s restricted area, so to say.

Well, I don’t want to break his trust. Actually, I wonder, what is hidden in the cellar. But… to survive is more important for me as to satisfy my curiousity.

Looking for hideout

It has been couples of weeks after the incident.

They wanted to kill me, but I’ve survived. Now, here I am, without really home, without really reality. My family is far enough for me to miss them. I’m looking for new hideouts.

Fortunately here are some friends of mine. Now I’m living in an old mansion amidst wild trees.

I don’t know, how long I can hide myself – from them, from the others, from the truth. One day I have to come out. One day…